Nini would not be able to live without these tubes

Nini cannot talk now, but just look into her eyes – there you can read all the sadness she feels, being completely alone in an intensive care unit. She simply cannot talk now, but only God knows how many thoughts are in her head now. Do you know how her eyes change when she sees her mother? She would probably have told her so much, but she cannot.

Nini: Mom, would you love me more if I was like everyone else and didn’t have those nasty tubes sticking out of me? Would you spend that much time with me? Or would you have your own life? Now I’m 16. Probably, it would be so interesting to live. And now I’m lying and counting how many times this device beeps, counting how many times a nurse comes in. I can’t even talk to her – this tube in my throat prevents me from speaking … only you, mom, understand what I want and what I need. Do you remember, mom, before my heart stopped and I ended up in the hospital, how happy we were at home? Remember I had a parrot I taught to talk? “Good Nini, beautiful Nini” he chirped and sat on my head and ran his paw through my hair. I laughed and you laughed, mom. You were only happy when I was happy. Do you remember mom, how I dreamed of headphones with cat ears which glow. I found them on the Internet and showed you. You said that I would have them for the New Year. And in December my heart stopped. I remember how you cried, I remember that you did not let me go to God. And now, one year later, my heart is working, but you and I are not at home, mom … I’m in the hospital, a bunch of tubes stick out of me, and you are allowed to see me only for 2 hours a day. And I miss you so much. Let me get well soon, and we’ll go home again! I think, my parrot misses me. I need special food and a lot of medications to get better faster and my mother to be by me.